Some days I don't even know what to hope for.
 

Some days I don't even know what to hope for; I'm faced with a situation and I'm not sure which way I want it to go. The pros and cons are so balanced, or both outcomes seem so undesirable, that I find myself at a loss. It is at these times that I just throw my hands up and pray, "Lord, I honestly don't know what would be best here, but I know you do. So, please, just lead me in whatever way you would have me go."

I used to be so proud that I would defer to God's judgment at those times, but now I realize I need to do it more often. Recently I applied for a position I was interested in, but by the time the interview was scheduled I was no longer sure I wanted the job. I just didn't know which way I wanted to go. There were pros and cons, but no obvious winner. I finally decided that I would just follow where God led moment to moment, see what happened, and trust that things were proceeding according to God's plan. I got the job and was overjoyed. Once again God had turned my life down the best road, even though I hadn't known which way to go.

Everything went smoothly for a while. But then the new job scheduled me for training on an evening when I had planned to go to a church function. Doubt reentered my mind. "Oh, no! Maybe I shouldn't have done this after all!"

You'd think I would have learned, but I'm still a little slow at these faith lessons. Of course, you know what happened next–yes, God worked it out again. I was sitting in orientation and the trainer said, "Oh dear! We've got too many people to have you all in one class. Let's split it up and have a session earlier in the day." I was so stunned that it took me a full minute before I volunteered for the earlier session that would get me to church just in time.

I am slowly learning that if I let God drive my life, then I will always end up where I am supposed to be. It's reassuring to know that I don't have to depend on my own sketchy wisdom.